Knowledge

She said, "You have nothing,
unless you have your health."

I thought; "How silly,
for we do not know how fragile that is."

We live,
we die,
in a blink of an eye.
A hiccup,
a cough,
a tumor,
a car accident,
a fall,
are but moments away from each of us.

We do not know.

Not money.
No, not love
and not even health, can we be sure of.

We can seek to have peace with our God and our fellow man
and that we can keep,
always.

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Was that a thought
Or
Was it a prayer?

Was that sensitivity
Or
weakness?

So much confusion

Vulnerability
Or
A fault?

Interest
Or
looking for prey?

On first meeting

Do you ever know?

Connections

I do not always need to understand, but i see "themes" shared across the people who blog here.  Each story has a different twist, but the theme is followed and its own right, it is beautiful.

So yesterday, i was at the head trauma doctor and while there was progression in the most important areas, there were areas that went backwards.
I knew there would be a mixed bag.
There has been extra strain at work and I have gone home with my eyes truly hurting.
I was worried that there would be a wholesale backwards movement, but there was real progress and so still once again, I am thankful.

I think this is fitting for thanksgiving day, so to all have a happy and blessed Thanksgiving!

Time

So much going on,
so little time it seems.
Life slips past
and the world continues to turn.

Yesterday,
with a thinly veiled sun,
a light,
not quite twilight
and yet not day time,
shone through the window pane.
A shadow on a wall,
with a branch projected
and a single leaf dancing,
holding on in a gusting wind.
I leave that sight to perhaps capture it,
to retrieve my camera,
but upon my return the leaf was gone
and only the swaying branch remained.

They consume,
they devour
and yest i continue to feed them.
I want them to stop,
so i may feed others,
but all i make is consumed
and not a crumb is left for others.

Why is my heart so,
it wants to give,
not keep.
What is it about me,
that does not take care of me?

I do not belong,
it seems,
in this selfish world at all...

Random thoughts,
but it is all about time slipping away...

Transitions

I took a ride east today
and faced countless variables in my eyesight as we drove to out destination.
 At one point (with the glasses) everything was double to within 50 feet of my line of sight,
then with no obvious reason apparent (change in lighting or background), i could see half a mile.
How strange this was!
Returning,
the sun was setting amidst a few clouds.
The golden brightness was amazing
and in the scattered clouds there were multitudes of optical illusions.
The light pillars and sun dogs gave a wonderful show.
As we traveled on our way,
and the sun sank into the clouds,
there was a transformation
which made all those clouds golden.
No longer looking at clouds,
but a landscape of molten lave
with streams and steam
and pure beauty.
As the sun continues to sink,
the colors turned from golden to a rosy red,
the sky from blue to green
and the transition continued
to purple and then grey and then black.
This took my breath away.

with only my cell phone, no justice can be done to its beauty.

Born Yesterday

Not really,
but I am so EASY!
A soft touch,
a word.
a pitiful look
and I melt.
I am ready to give away heart and soul,
but that is not what you want.
A simple twist,
opening what can not be opened by you
and my treasures are yours!
How easy it was
and so you come again,
and again,
and yet again.
I can not refuse you.

I know where he lives,
that he is well cared for,
but he comes, like my cat of old,
begging and asking for a special treat
and i always give in.

and he says thank you after
and gives me a rub
and goes on his way.

He has family,
his name is Halloween.
There are children in his house
and he has love,
but he comes here every so often for a special treat.

Not white tuna,
the one with more mercury in it,
but the light,
the only one my wise old cat would eat before i found out about the mercury thing.

They are smart
and they wrap me around their paws!

these days!

These days bring back so many fond memories!
The sun, again,
even the darkness of work could not stop it.
Bringing me back to a time and place long ago and far away.
A place that i can not visit anymore.
Houston,
with my Dad,
in an "undeveloped area,
hunting dove.
The air and temperature and brightness all seemed to be the same
and i missed them all.

A perfect day

It was a perfect day for a walk,
the sun was shinning gloriously,
tho for my taste it was a bit nippy with the wind whipping a cool air to a cold one.
The sun was as bright as it only gets in the fall and winter,
so bright, it was hard to see.
I walked about the small center of Stamford,
avoiding the shadows of the few tall buildings,
enjoying the sun shine.
My thoughts drifted to the week before
and work.
About the trap that would not be sprung
because of my own attitude.
Of the yapping dogs,
who were not dogs, but people,
worrying and carrying on about countless unimportant things.
People who seemed indifferent and distant,
i left them behind in my dust
and i walked
and i visited with people i knew.
This was a good day to be off!

And a good time was had by all...

Should have taken pictures,
I did not and so I can only describe that the time we had in Byram, CT (Think Greenwich before Port chester, NY) was fun.
It had been some time since I had been to Lolita Cosina in Greenwich, i was not sure what to expect after some of my more recent restaurant experiences.
Quickly - it was really good before and it improved and lately, that has not been the case with other restaurants i have been to.
The cuisine is Mexican inspired and really, really flavorful.
The tequila did not hurt a thing.
My only negative is, for some one with eyes like mine, you need a flash light to read the menu, but i need extra light almost anywhere I go.
We wanted for nothing and were everyone of us (5) extremely satisfied.

The cold wind

A cold wind blows through the town today
And freezes my heart.
Questions arise,
What am I waiting for?
For my dreams seem unfulfilled
And my heart is heavy.
Hope?
It seems just beyond my reach,
For my time is not yet.
But is coming.
Perplexed that such changes in weather,
effect the very marrow of my being.
Warm days will come
And the sun is shinning today,
But it is cold
And this I do not like.

Only about the little town Stamford

2 posts today - this one only about local Stamford items
Snow this morning!@&
It is about 2  or 3 weeks later than normal, we will see what tomorrow brings.
Movie "we the people"  Shooting sometime soon at Cove Island beach - they are going in the water, so I wonder if there is any sanity in the movie.
Fairway market - I went on Wednesday (okay you can doubt MY sanity), lots of people, some interesting things i don't see other places, not very exciting and not cheap.  Lots of employees EVERY Where, figure half will be gone by Easter.
I did notice that all the other stores in the area were matching Fairways "loss leaders",
other wise - Ho hum.
Headlines here, headlines there - all about politics, all personal stupidness - it is really getting boring.
Stamford, is not an exciting place to me, I hope we have another blog and grog soon.
Oh yes, tomorrow going to Byram to Lolita's  for a special day for me.  Even not real "Mexican" (I call it trendy American interpretation), it is far better than Stamford's Mariann's and the Mayan Riviera (Heck, the Taco Truck and Tacos Guadalajara are better than those two!).Enough of Stamford.

Life

In the distractions of this world,
the needs others push on you,
the things that are truly unimportant,
the things not about life,
i sometimes forget.
I forget to be truly thankful for my life
and all that i have been given.
Yes, you heard or read correctly,
all that i have been given.
Others will tells you you worked for it it, it is yours,
but the reality is that all that i have,
my life,
my friend
and even my double vision are a gift
and i am thankful.
i wake up in the morning
and i breath
and i hear
and i even see, distorted tho it my be,
wondrous and marvelous things.
Everything around seems to want to take it away,
but i am constantly reminded that it is all a gift
and to enjoy it
and be thankful.

This is my lesson from fall, the season,
for its beauty and splendor seems to last only a little while,
yet, it will return
and if you look closely,
even now,
in what most consider the ugly season,

there is much beauty.

They walk with me still - in the clouds of my dreams...

A new restaurant,
just opened and still chaotic.
Things not quite ready, yet her i was.
With John, who is every day in my life and
Paula, whom i have not seen in a year and a half.
We had parted some time before,
i wanted more, but she was still cut deeply from betrayal from the past.
We saw each other only a few times after and had reconciled, but were not close.
She still visits me in my dreams and so here she was,
at this barely finished restaurant of Mexican style
and everything was pleasant.

Jenny, who survived her own life trauma,
i still see weekly in real life,
but more often she comes to me in dreams, softly, touching, caressing, being helpful, supportive.
She come to me in unfamiliar places,
where there is confusion
and she brings peace.

The beautiful matron, Margarita,
works 2 floors above
and always has a kind or supportive word for me,
stands with me in the middle of battles
in those dreams,
so that victory is assured.

How marvelous are these companions in my dreams...
or are they really dreams at all?

Halloween and early fall pictures

at night, this really glowed!

my lair

more of my lair

He must have scared me

A prety witch!

the pumpkin looks on

The angle glowed!

A winter Rose!

A late bubble bee

The Autumn Scarlet