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Born a Texan, but traveled the US extensively.  Now staying on the East coast.

Wednesday, October 11, 2017

who am I now?



Familiar and comfortable
with circuits and code;
especially in the absolutes of zeros and ones.
I find  myself in unfamiliar surroundings,
green fields of soy and cotton.
Coops of dove
and pigeons,
ducks  and  chickens
and goats.
All so unfamiliar
and not so comfortable.
The gardens are wonderful,
I am at home with them,
but such a large area,
how  do I start?
I no longer am who I was…
I am glad

Friday, October 6, 2017

the child

the child,
rests in his mother's  bosom,
safe  secure.
Not so such a place for a man,
tho we may wish to return.
Do I dare say it,
the comfort is  contagious,
we  want more
and not to leave,
but  to  grow  up,
is to leave the comfortable  place.
My new life is  not comfortable
and so I am growing up

and this is  a good  thing.

Wednesday, September 27, 2017

good news

so the adventure does not begin again,
the second MRI,
shows no tumor,
only things  that should be monitored,
but are of no significant concern!
WHEW!

Friday, September 1, 2017

and so the adventure begins again

well,
MAYBE.
the new "thing" they have seen,
must be reconcilled and compared with the old,
then they can tell me is i go on the merry go round,
or not.
i have been through this before,
but it is different,
there is no urgency,
if it is,
they have found it very early
and it leaves me with options.
i am at peace, whatever is coming,
no, i have JOY.
if it is my end,
i am happy,
if it is not, i have much to do
and i am happy.

Thursday, August 31, 2017

pins and needles

waiting to see the doctor today
having explain his radiology speak
and his interpretation of it.
i read a lot,
know a lot,
it doesn't help,
i now need his explanations.
no more to be said

Tuesday, August 29, 2017

it has been awhile, bu not as long as i thought

since i blogged,
situations have arisen;
blackouts,
greyouts
and falls.
tests now show something amiss
and i need the comfort of blogging.
A new mass has appeared
and there will be more discussion Thursday,
then i will understand,
but for now,
i am a bit shaken.
Prayers are asked,
thank you

Sunday, August 6, 2017

i wonder if i can

i am in Virginia - permanently.
It is a place i have wanted to be for many, many years,
but it has not been without pitfalls.
2 or 3 blackouts
and i will not go into what happened,
yet i am seeking help for medical people.
Enough said...
i know there are those closest to me,
who will read
 and then talk to me.
Sometimes, in a very caring way,
i am challenged...
it is beautiful here
and in a sense i am in a sort of heaven,
yet the work to get it to that point
and keep it,
is tremendous.
I have not done it all yet,
but now there is time