there seem to be many prolific writers out in blog land,
many post a day,
where i am lucky to share my heart and life but once in a great while.
The days have been a bit troubled,
but only in the sense that i can not any longer rely on me.
Oh the brain functions,
sometimes too well,
but the memory is confused and mixed up.
It is not Alzhiemers nor old age...
It is from the effects of that operation,
the one that saved my life and removed that tumor
and openned up another door that some times i still am unsure of.
A door that i see without seeing.
know the right place without remembering.
following a trail of a still small voice that my life was once too big and loud to hear before.
There is a comfort in not knowing, but still being sure.
That statement confuses me, but it is truth.
I seem to live it more than ever before.
of course,
i am even more confused that
the scientific,
analytical mind
remains intact and working a a level that leave most people bemused.
But now the heart seems first and foremost
and i think this is good.
8 comments:
I love the way you express these complex, but somehow universal, feelings. So honest, so true.
And yes, what a mystery..that your scientific mind keeps ticking away, but other parts of your life are led by your heart. Life is, and should be, mysterious. We don't need to understand everything.
by no means do i intend to lessen your experience, joey. i know it has been profound, but so often what you say of how you experience the world and even your confusion (at times) - i share in similar experiences. perhaps when we move closer to one door, we move further away from another. perhaps we only lose sight of the linear for a time. small trade, i hope, for what seems to be closer at hand.
breathe deeply)))
xo
erin
Erin, i think all of us with heart must make this journey, some of us just need an extra push (like me)!
Lou, life is mysterious and it is something to embrace!
Kind of like honour scars of battle, really.
I admire your spirit and courage.
Really beautiful, Joey. It's really heart wrenching, but beautiful.
Really beautiful, Joey. Beautiful, but also heart wrenching.
You inspire us all with your continued valiant efforts to excel.
You don't strike me as a man that gives up easily. You perserve when others would/will fail. Having the heart first seems like a good thing.....jmo....There was an old Tom Petty song called..."She's gonna listen to her heart" The gender is incidental. Godspeed in your continuing journey!
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