Sunday, August 4, 2013

An adventure that is now 5 years old

Yes it now is 5 years since i had that tumor against my brain stem removed...
the memory of waking up to pain and darkness and bright lights is still very vivid.
The remembrance of the peace that surrounded me when i stopped breathing,
the voice of the doctor saying "he's not breathing people", is also very vivid.
The continued struggle i have continues today,
a struggle most would not comprehend.


Pain, it still occurs,
not as before, nevertheless it is debilitating.

People have left my life, involuntarily and voluntarily
and it no long matters.
This is also incomprehensible because i continue my struggle, unabashed.

People have told me that i am,
brave,
i still do not see it.
I just do the best i can do day by day.
I do not think it is enough,
i still feel limited,
sometimes helpless
against this tide that flows against me,
but i continue on,
doing the best that i can...
and the adventure continues.


7 comments:

betchai said...

thanks for sharing this Joey, you are always an inspiration, despite how we struggle in this life, despite the pain, you continue to make life worth living beautifully and shared each day. i pray you continue to get better and better as you live the adventure of your life.

Gail said...

HI JOEY - your healing journey is miraculous. I am honored to k ow you.
Love you man
Gail
peace.....

♥●• İzdihër •●♥ said...

Hang on, my friend. This is just a phase.You will see. Those who left, don't worry about them. they were not for u. We are struggle, and this is life !You are just doing it way better because only you can do it.

Granny Annie said...

You deal with life like an athlete determined to win the race.

Unknown said...

it is kind of simple, i refuse to give up, tho i would like to, i discard that which does not truly matter or try to.

Unknown said...

it is kind of simple, i refuse to give up, tho i would like to, i discard that which does not truly matter or try to.

Shionge said...

Yes...doing the best that you can and be positive :D