There was a lot to learn in the city from the doctor, some came because i mentioned that the show that I like (Bones) had the male main character have the same sort of tumor I had.
It turns out the doctor like this show also.
The first thing I learned - the 6 weeks recovery mentioned in the show is a neurologist dream and never happens in reality. All the other aspects, especially the prolonged bizarre symptoms the the brain exhibits last a long time. I can certainly attest to that. Strange forgetfulness, mixing up of words in sentences, an increase emotional input into my thinking. The emotional thing I actually like, it brings out the muse better. The rest of the strange things I could do without, but longer than a year is normal.
I also have to listen closely, the doctor and my friends keep saying not to just drop out of work, for my own mental health.
The strange thing is that for many years was that my identity was as a "Chemist", I do not feel that anymore.
I work as a chemist and many other things besides, but i really want out and it is not the extra work that is causing that, but I am tired of it.
I am not tired of the results because I will bend over backwards to help people and there are a lot of them who need compassion in the current situation and I do not see that coming from many people working on the project.
That will be some thing consistent for me, but let me see where this leads me.
Monday I begin a conversation with my boss and I will see where it leads.
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take it one day at a time, sir.~~~i can't open my dashboard so i can't post. i created a new blog, i don't know if you can open it - http://uncoveringaculture.blogspot.com
hope to see you there!
Hi oey-
I like your approach - steady, well thought, a bit of humor and awareness of the realities. I am impressed.
I was thrilled to find out today that my "disability disbursements" are now on "auto-pay", it felt like a victory!!! :-)
Love to you
Gail
peace
p.s. do you have any great lamb marinade recipes?
No I would not drop out wither but I think if I can find a positive in all of this it is that you discovered more about yourself and grew greatly as a person from this very adverse condition. That is why you don't feel like just a "chemist." This is an opportunity.
6 weeks? someone ought to speak to those writers.
I really liked this post. You are a chemist, but you seem to be many other things as well. I cannot imagine what you have been through physically as it has been your journey. I only hope you find your happiness on this planet and explore all other parts of you. I pray for your long term recovery and that one day the side effects will be a long time gone.
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