there seems to be a lot going on...

After the memorial service, i took a few more days of quiet, in a restful place.
There was much healing.
Coming back to the rest of the world

and its crazy prioritization of things,

i find myself disturbed, again.    

nightmares of my mom's last days,
strugling to breath.
She is not there any more,
this part is over.

But where have i gone?
i seem to shrink to some insignificance.

I breath again and reenter the world.

how easy it is to vanish and not know where you have gone.

Now i have still one more holiday, I will not celebrate.