Day 2
There is a work going on,
I cannot live in this peace forever.
The struggle,
the fight,
for my very life,
for living,
gives me purpose.
For at the edge of my being is an abyss,
a place where i want to go,
where there is no struggle,
but it is an ending, not a begining
or perhaps a beginning that i do not understand.
When i am out of this struggle,
it pulls on me even stronger;
than when i am fainting and weary
from the struggle that i have been in.
Not yet, I say,
but my aimlessness is strong.
This is not helpful
and the abyss calls me even stronger.
Love calls,
but i am missing it,
it deflects off of my heart
and i do not know why.
More info comes
and a glimmer of purpose comes,
but i must be patient,
still again.
3 comments:
JOEY - ride the waves - let go
Love Gail
peace....
my prayers with you Joey, hope the pain becomes less and more bearable, and the struggles would give you more strength as they fade away.
"A glimmer of purpose comes, but I must be patient still again."
These are the moments with perhaps the most opportunities for spiritual growth and enlightened understanding, I think. To be patient goes against our very human nature ... well human nature as we age. Look to the little children, their wisdom shows us the true way. God Bless, Joey. Still keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.
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