Only a little bit of time,
but never the less time.
There is so much to do and catch up to...
and then the discovery.
The discovery of yet again why i had to stop working...
Another something found from 2006 that i do not recall,
it seems strange that there are 2 years completely gone in my life.
Missing in memory, not to be found.
It disturbs me
and yet i say;
"oh it happened then!",
knowing full well there is no return,
no jogging of memory that does not exist.
That is what i lost
and how i muddled through 4 years until this time,