i have been watching as of late

As all of us complicate life.
No, it is not all our fault,
things dig at us and push us down
and make us,
well difficult.
We want,
we do not have.
We ask
and do not receive.
We always hold that is the other who is at fault,
but it isn't.
And so the struggle truly begins,
when we realize this,
that there is much beauty in life
and we fail to see it.
As winter approaches
and i get cold,
which is something i do Not enjoy,
i strive to look for beauty
and just sometimes i fine it.