dreaming or not?

I awoke from my dream,

saying this is not real,

but i did not know yet,

just what i was referring to...

was it the dream

or was it now?

There seemed to be so much struggle,

so much pain,

so much strife,

now.

That was not in the dream,

there was peace

and comfort

and i felt safe.

I almost remembered,

the cause of that dream.

An operation,

the one where i stopped breathing,

for i heard the doctor say so.

Oh, that peace!

That peace was the reality,

not this place that i was in now.

The struggle took over

and i forgot the dream,

but i remember the peace

and wondered why it was not here.