some times

Some times,
i awake in a strange fog.
i am fully awake,
but not functioning.
i struggle to get gears in motion,
but even coffee does not help.
i go through routines and patterns,
things that normally help,
but to no avail.
The days are cold,
no scratch that,
freezing,
but the sun is out.
Even the dog,
with his heavy lab coat,
looks to me for comfort.
The night was worse...
i would call it inhuman
and so begins this holiday,
that has little meaning to me,
for there are more important things,
in  this life,
like living.

Valentines Day stuff ♥

 

A rose I painted some time ago.

♥ - Today I will celebrate by attempting a mole sauce, chocolate has wonderful qualities and so it seems appropriate for Valentines Day.
I do not have anyone special coming over, but i think it is okay cause the person is Not a romantic and does not like the games that have been played by others.
I actually respect that a great deal, because I gave up on the games a long time ago and have missed out on some very miserable and shallow people because of it.
If my experiment works, they will be invited over, but i will not play them as a Guinea Pig!
♥, flowers, hugs and kisses for all!