Thanksgiving was not my time to spend with my mom,
i wanted her to spend it with her once removed family
and i told her often.
It was Christmas and her birthday that we spent together
and those are not due yet.
It has been a year and a half
and yes i still miss her,
but it was not suppose to hit so hard during Thanksgiving!
I became melancholy, sad, upset and depressed
and i could not fathom why.
I told those closest to me (who i consider like brothers and sisters),
that i felt alone
and they felt left out.
I did not want to be "here" any more
but i did not know why.
I spoke and they dragged it out of me,
from a place that i was not expecting, not at Thanksgiving time.
Yes, i still miss my mom.
She came to me during waking hours and rub that spot where the operation was,
as she did those times 4 years ago,
when my head was swollen and sore,
and i was fine.
It will probably happen again,
but for now,
i am fine.
5 comments:
Where is she? Why don't you go and visit her... you don't have to wait till xmas I think since you are missing her
Monday would have been my mother's 97th birthday. There is not a day that goes by I do not miss her. You are not alone in your sadness. Moms are so very special and ours would probably whip us both for being so melancholy.
Genskie - she passed a year and a half ago and i would love to go visit, but the "visit" would be permanent!
HI JOEY - oh how I feel your pain and loss so deeply and truly. I cried when you wrote of feeling her rub the spot where you had your operation. Such really moved me. You are a beautiful man and I am honored to share in your life and have you share in mine.
Love you man
Gail
peace....
Anniversaries are always so hard, and there doesn't need to be a reason. I'm so sorry.
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