Thanksgiving

So you thought I might be complaining since I am not 100% yet, ?
No, I am very thankful.
1) I am alive and I might not be other wise - that tumor was not a good thing.
2) Yes I see double - most of the time, but I see and that is better than many.
Ans I sometimes see singly, especially in the morning and close up.
and yes my gait is off balance, but I am better than I could Imagine all things consideringSo I am not complaining, I am waiting for things to get to "normal" and I am sure they will, but I need more patience.
Thanks for all the encouragement from those who have responded here.
I have others who contact me directly and encourage me, thank you for that also.

Still Recovering

for those of you following this crazy post, you know I have bneeen through a ringer. I am not out yet, but finally I can say things are lokking up. Today, I did not have significant headaches for the first time in a couple or weeks or since the last operation. The eyesight is bad. but maybe getting bettter. Thw queation has been how long? August 7th. 3 months plus. at times I have been able to see part the scrabling that my brain has made of my current eyesight, but it is not enough. I patch and can almost see straight, but I need my glasses to see anything like reading materail and that is with a patch.. Walking has been a mess no matter what lately and that is a pain. So I am still in recoverery.

Pain

of course getting better is an issue of facing pain. As my eye sight strains to come back to normal, I have headaches from muscle eye strain... An yes they are getting better! The struggle though is intense. Additionally cause I do not have that "pillow" of swelling in the back of my neck, the muscles are having to re-adjust...and that is muscle pain, some what alleviated with Advil (Neither Alieve nor Tylenol seem to work on this). Of course we are also in the middle of fall allergies and my sinuses are giving me grief and so this is 3 points of different pain, 2 of which are directly related to getting better. I will take the pain because I can now see the recovery. At night, when rods and black and white is the rule, I see singlely. In the mirror, I see one of me at close range. A counter top will appear with all of its items singlely, until something moves or I see past it. Distance is different. at 3 to 4 feet a pinpoint of laser light is correctly found on the right side, but at a distance it is found on the left. With this there is some nausea and so my weight is down still a bit more (and I could easily lose another 15 pounds without worrying). I was over weight before, but carried it well. I am still covered by my sick time, so I do not worry in that area (one true advantage for worrying for the city for 29 + years.) The advantage of still doing okay with all this still surprises me. I have found out what gifts all the people in my life are, even if they are not what I expected or what they presented. All of you who read and responded to this series have added something positive to me. Those in my life who connected added something to me. I have learned still more about what gifts are and I have learned more about suffering and pain than I wanted to.

And The Reslts are in...

And I do not know, I feel like I got knocked back a couple of months.. head aches, more trouble seeing, but the swelling in the back of my head is gone. Most of this is expected. I had been recovering with this large lumo of CSF in the back of my head and it wasputting pressure on everything. It is gone and I expected maybe a week of readjustment. I got it. There are improvement I can see for a little bit then they get scattered all over the place and I am lost. The Doctor told me of headaches, my boss told me about headaches, a nurse friend told me of headaches - thought there would be headaches, but not on the level I got and muscle aches where the fluid was. Of course, the fluid adjusted how my neck musles held my head, It is gone, now things can proceed normally. And that is exactly what is happening, so now I am on the true road of recovery. And yes the operation was a day surgery, I am at home.