Blindsided

or sucker punched.
My Mom has been saying she is dying (not an unreal statement, we all are) for over two years.
She has used that, along with her sister's not always accurate portrayal of my mom's health to try to push me.
I have been trying to get well enough to travel and i did it once in September.
She then at a cold, did not see a doctor and it went into pneumonia.
For an 88 year old, that is never a good thing.
It feels as if she has stopped trying to manipulate and the truth is there, for whatever time she has left, she needs 24 hour care.
And it is my lap to tie up all the loose ends so this can happen.
I know all the horror stories and i am not real happy about this.
I am exploring other options.
This is not easy.

Rise of the Machines

Today was one of  THOSE days.
You know the kind, where nothing works out correctly.
In this case it was the machines I work with that were giving me trouble.
I should have suspected it, because last night suddenly something I had downloaded was not there in my suystem and the email had either been deleted by me or had simply disapeared.
Today, the new instrument refused to function giving me strange error codes.
I had done some work, but It should not have created a problem, or maybe not.
Then my beloved program, which has worked well for years on my work computer, needed a bit of VBA (visual basic code for applications) tweaking and then everything went haywire also.
That was a program I controlled and made do what I wanted.
My only question is...
Is there a skynet yet?????

Almost disaster

Well, yesterday was tough for me. I probably pushed too much. Was out too long in the afternoon, but it was critical for my own knowledge to know what i could take.
No nothing serious happened to me, no falls, collapses or whatever, but as i flopped onto my bed for a short nap around 5, i took my glasses off. I put them, not on the nightstand, as is my custom, but on the bed.
Shortly thereafter, i put my hand and thumb through the right side and the frame bent and the lens popped out.
This of course, removed all tiredness and replaced it with horror!
One of the things i used to do in whatever spare time i had, was some jewelry work. Nothing complicated, but I knew how to use a jeweler's loop and fix tiny things.
I was not prepared to be tested this way!
Even though I had the reading glasses with the corrective frennel plastic (to act as a prism), they are not clear enough for fine work. Oh I can read with them. John was away and no one else in the house could help me.
Long story, short, after 30 minutes or so, I had thew frames back into the proper alignment and the lerns back in. Initially I had one of the plastic pasties on upside down, but realized my mistake real quick when looking out the glasses did not correct doubleness, reinserted the plastic properly and I could see again.
The most inteeresting thing was that I went to bed early (10) and got up late (8), which means the little incident took 3 hours off my day.
WOW! What an adventure!